Fallen Ray

Over And Over Again And Expecting Different Results.

Albert Einstein

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Yesterday was my birthday. YEY! Congrats for me!

It was just the usual plain beautiful days for me. Nothing specials. I don’t really like celebrating my birthday. No reason. I woke up as usual. I took a bath as usual. I checked my mail as usual. I went to my inbox as usual, and i found something unusual there. Happy birthday email messages. Should be normal for me right. Considering my status and famousability (is this a word?). But but but, this one is not the usual happy birthday email. I got this one from … *tada* web2mail.com.

I can’t believe my eyes. This is very nostalgic. I’m going to tell you a little piece of my past, which i believe you’ve been longing for. Back then when i still undergraduate student, a freshman, internet connection was so scarce. So very hard to find. Not at internet cafe, nor my university, nothing can satisfy my hunger for good fast worldwide access. The fastest speed i could remember is 5 Kilobyte / second. I would be very happy at that time. Normally we could only get 500 bytes/sec or something. So, you could imagine how desperate yet patience we are.

Every university student gets email address from our faculty. We access this mail locally, which mean it’s much much faster than login to yahoo. By the time i can logged in to yahoo, or care2mail which was very famous at that time, i would have finish reading my whole university’s inbox. No joke.

I got a brilliant idea. What if we can download using our mail? Some service must be exist somewhere out there to save our sad soul! There should be a charming site that can send files on websites directly to my local inbox. I decide to start a new journey. Using search engines with not so good algorithm. Ancient type. Search engines at that time can not return relevant results. I tried everything, lycos, excite, alltheweb. Until finally in the middle of nowhere, i met my saviour … web2mail.com.

Without hesitation i quickly join the force of web2mail.com, download everything i want. Leaving campus with big smile. On the next day, full of spirits i check my inbox. Enjoying every files that has been sent by web2mail through all night. Everyday is like harvest day for me. I even thought of having harvest festival too, but obviously my friends declined enthusiastically.

That was the story from 8-9 years ago. Finding a piece of mail from them, happy birthday email messages which sent to great people like me. Out of blue. I feel happy and a bit sad at the same time. This little mail has crafted something big in heart in my 2008 birth day. Thanks to whoever behind web2mail. Good luck people.

Title: Easier to Run
Artist: Linkin Park
Album: Minutes To Midnight

Original Album Version

Live version

Cool piano instrumental version

It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

[Chorus]
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there’d never be a past

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler than change

[Chorus]
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It’s easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It’s easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

I have big brand new laptop in my apartment since two month ago. HP dv7 series 17 inch-wide. I call him Blackie. I have my own several personal reason to name him Blackie. First, its because of Blackie color is silver and black. Second, Black is a stereotype of Big … in P world, if you know what i’m talking about. I don’t have any complain for him. He’s big, fast, nice looking, big tuts, even has separated num-pad just like normal PC. Except one thing … Vista Windows Explorer View.

Before i tell you my story, I want to share a bit of my journey with him. Blackie comes with Japanese version of Windows Vista Ultimate, sick … ultimate man! Okay, move on. I can’t read Kanji well, or better said i almost can’t read kanji. My light and genius brain figure out that i need to change the language. I got advices from my friends who are poor by financial and luck, who have Business or Home version installed on their laptop. They told me to use Vistalizator. Lucky for me i don’t need it, Ultimate version allow me to change into English language just by downloading 64-bit Vista SP1 MUI Language Packs. Ow yea, Blackie is also my first 64-bit laptop … hurray for him. Language barrier problem is solved. Second one arises.

This is my first experience using Vista. It’s pretty easy to accustomed with. After several days i’m just more than familiar now. Only one thing that always bugging me, The Infamous Windows Exploder. Everytime i change folder, the view is always changing. It confuses me. Sometimes the column showing filesize or modification time is gone. Gone! It shows rating stars instead. Column title is in Japanese Kanji. Once again Microsoft never fail to make unfinished-low-rate-product. I can change which column i want to show and which to hide, but it took me forever. After that forever, when i change to another folder the setting won’t saved. Isn’t that genius?

I remember back then in Windows XP, we have option to reset folder view and apply a view to other folders. Vista should have it … good i need at least 5 minutes to find out where Bill Gates’ peon put that menu. Gotcha! I see the exact same two button like in XP. I push both without second thought. Nothing happen. Everything still the same. What? You expect me to push again for 10 times. No way, i’ve repeat the same thing again and again, five times is enough.

I think i’ll just gave up and accept Blackie as he was, with crazy jumpy vista explorer view. Days goes by … Today, i’m at the everest peak of my patience. I can’t hold anymore. How can i work if i don’t know the file size? How can i do my job efficiently if i don’t know what’s the latest file i’ve been updating? Sick, this is sick. I decide to ask help from uncle google. Surfing between two or three keywords, finally i found a possible solution. I try it, and pray … Well, actually i forgot to pray, but i did try it. That’s why i succeed. The solution is very simple actually. Even Bill Gates who doesn’t know it will feel ashamed.

First i open windows explorer using Win-E. Right click on drive D. Click properties. Click on top-right-most tab, Customize. What kind of folder do you want? Use this folder type as a template: “All Items”. I also check the option “Also check this template to all subfolders”. That’s it. Now i can use “Apply to Folders” and “Reset Folders” as i like.

All of this disaster on vista windows explorer view is caused by a new “Folder Type” features introduced in Vista. Folders can be Documents, Pictures and Videos, Music Details, and Music Icons. At brief glance it looks good, but in hard flat reality it doesn’t work. My documents which is one of my project’s source code was detected as Pictures or else. This Windows Exploder are trying to be smart. It offers me a brilliantly stupid view of some empty columns and ratings on the last column, without modification date and size of its content. Amazing, very amazing…

But i know exactly what i said.

Cindy

Is To Face Your Reality

John Reese

than death itself.

Hard to Kill

mate!

Jack Sparrow, … Captain Jack Sparrow

I tends to do more than one task at the same time. My friend told me that it’s an ability that most women has. She praise me, not mocking me, if that’s what comes into your mind. Well, my mother has it. That might be true. It’s quiet neat. If i can do 2 works at the same time, that means i works twice faster than others. I can add another job, switching between three tasks at the same time. Now i’m three times faster. Right? Such a multitasking myth we always believe at. So let’s continue. I could do ten job at the same time, so i should at least five times faster than others. Right? ….. WRONG!

I tend to get bored easily. In order to keep my pace, i’m switching my works. First i do my research for couple minutes. Stop. Do my presentation …. stop. Do my japanese homeworks … an so on, you got the idea?
Let see~ I do my works online. Obviously, i can not live without internet. My favorite browser is Opera, but RoboForm didn’t support it. I always use my second favorite, Firefox. Internet Explorer is way too slow, such a failed product. Well the maker itself is a failure. That makes sense :d
So, what am i talking about. Ow, yea. My lovely Firefox, Fifie. I usually opens three windows at the same time (ctrl-n, in Fifie). And, and each window will have at least a dozen of opened tabs. Okay? Take your time to imagine it.

I do exactly the same thing today. I opened 30 tabs at least. The multitasking myth said that i should at least three times more productive. What happened is, my brain exhausted. I don’t use statistics or any methods to prove it, but my sharp instinct told me that i’m not even twice productive. Lately i feel so tired every time i do works this way. Not just that. It’s not ended just that way today. I feel exhausted and also I piss off, and piss off, and piss at toilet also. I spend couple hours on my blogs, yes blogs not blog, writing couple posts. I rest after million of sweat dropped during the time i pump my brain. I took a deep breath, make a coffee, relax, sit back, throw my glance into a sparking mirror that reflects Fifie instead of my handsome face.

But no! NO Fifie there. Only a small error box. Omg, this is worse than seeing pimple reflected on my monitor. Damn 1000x. My mind is going blank for a while. My fingers are so numb i cannot feel the surface of keyboard tuts. After a deep breath i regain my consciousness. Nothing much i can do to save Fifie. I just have to voluntarily restart her :(( Here we are, my life feels like reverted back into couple hours before. Like riding a time machine, i’m going back to past. I have to do the exact same works once again. Hicks~ Come on, comfort me!

Conclusion~ I end this as a tip of the day. Open one, only one, Fifie each time i surf the shimmering waves of internet. Maximum three, uuuumm, five tabs to limit my mind from wandering too far and sucked into tempting swirls of online buzz. F*ck off multitasking myth! I don’t care. It took me 10 years until i finally realize this. No more than three, eh five, tabs or you’ll be sorry. You’ll be sorry. Comfort me! :((

I may not follow.
Don’t walk behind me;
I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.

Albert Camus